So... I just cancelled my Lasik surgery and all related eye appointments. I need more time.
Yesterday I had some good talks with some friends who are all very supportive of me getting the surgery and say "everything will be okay!" which makes me feel like yes, everything WILL be okay if I get this surgery! It's good to talk to friends about things. But then I go back to OBSESSIVELY researching on the Internet, desperately looking for the "good" stories, and I get anxious and worried and scared. I wake up during the night worrying about it... not so much the surgery itself, but I worry about permanent dry eyes and eventual decline in vision quality. Or any other million "possible complications". Of course my eye doctor's office and the Lasik clinic want to talk to me about my concerns and help me not feel so anxious, but of course it is in their best interest if I do the surgery because they make money!
Last night my darling hubby pointed out to me that I don't HAVE to get the surgery next week, I can do it a few months or even years from now. I can cancel it and take more time to think about it. So that is what I am doing. I need to feel 100% good about doing this, and right now I don't. I'm probably only at about 60% right now.
I am a little bit disappointed but I am also relieved that I have made a decision for now.
The thing is, if there was no such thing as the Internet and I ONLY had the information I received from the clinic and the recommendation from my eye doctor and the personal stories from the few people I know who have had it done, I would probably go ahead and do it. But there is just SO MUCH negative stuff on the internet. Even stories from people who were initially very very happy with their surgery and then four years later are experiencing problems... and I know, these people could have something completely unrelated going on or they don't take care of their eyes or WHO KNOWS but I'm still pausing because of the stories I am reading. Is that totally stupid? It probably is. But I can't help it.
So I will take some time off from stressing out about this, take a break from looking at the Internet, try to talk to more "real life" people, and see how I feel in a couple months.
2 comments:
I totally get it. You have to not have any qualms about it. Your eyes are just fine. So keep with the glasses and contacts! Wait til your 68-78 and have to have cataract surgery, when they actually do the "lasik" for free.
Although they don't call it that.
Yah I'd wait.. it's not like you can't see without the surgery.
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